week 13 theme

With the sky dark and grey, the wind cool and strong, I walk along the cold asphult sidewalk with only my thoughts to keep me company. I've made it to the small pond in Brown woods that was there only a year ago where my friends and I would catch frogs and climb the cliff that was on the other side. Now this place is silent from any life. The ground is lifeless from workers bulldozing it all flat. The air smells of deatha nd decay from plants rotting and none of this reaching me because my mind is looking inward to what is troubling me. The huge question that is bothering me is "what am I going to do with the rest of my life?". I really don't know what I want to do but I need to figure it out soon because I'll be left in the dust if I don't. So my mood will be somber until I can reach my conclution.

week 11 theme

High fives all around was what I got for what I had done. Down at Broadway Park a group of guys and myself had gotten together to play some ultamate frisbee. I had never played with most of the guys that were there but they soon knew who I was. it had been about 20 minutes into the game and already my chest was burning and telling me "please no more". Though I knew if would have felt nice to sit for a minute I wasn't about to. I played through the pain and reached my second wind. We where the receiving team and right off it wasn't good because they got a good toss and the team had to back up to get it. Justin was the first to reach the frisbee and was instantly covered so he couldn't get a clean throw in. Instead of throwing it down field he threw it to Scott who, not guarded, quickly threw it to Don. Don is basicly the Manning Patten of frisbee and I was he chosen receiver. From about half way down the field he let loss the hail mary and I was on it. I frisbee was curving away from be but I sprited to where I knew I could get it and at the last second I snagged the disk from the air for a point for my team. From then on I was guarded from any long tosses and I was thrown too alot more then I had before. It was a great moment in frisbee history.

theme week 9

Isn't your birthday supposed to be joyest? I alwasy thought so but on my 19th birthday not all went as planned for me that day. I had gone to school like every other day but with a little more hop in my step. I didn't think anything could go wrong. I was met by my friends in our own little click we've always had. The noisy and crowded lunch room wasn't want I wanted for the beginning of the day. Just as I reach the table the bell rings and I don't even get to say hello to everyone before I have to get to my pre. cal. class. There isn't anyone in that class that I really know and I just sit and listen to the teacher ramble on about quadratic formulas and triple varibles. The whole day went like this where I wandered the halls between classes and the later the day went the greyer and bleeker it got. It wasn't until I got home did my day brighten up because I was looking forward to my cake and presents. Though I always want Fun Fetty cake for my birthday my mother went and tried outa new kind of cake on me. It was a mass of nastyness but I'm too kind to say that to her. The presents were well thought of because I was into "Lord of the Rings" back then but I had all the movies and getting the 3 books wasn't high up on my wanting list. So at the end of the night with all of the things combining to form one day of sarrow I climbed into bed and began looking forward to my 20th birthday.

week 8 theme

In the picture of 'Proportions of Man' Leonardo da Vinci shows that the human body should be completly equal in all forms, and that this "perfect" person is what god intended us to be. If only this were true, then there would be no wars, hunger or sadness in the world. No person on earth has perfect symmetry and it shows more in our personallities then in our phisical being. Take for instance me, I'm a charming, fun and smart guy if you get to know me. See thats my thing I shy around new people and won't say much until I get to see how you react to things. I'm also a very nervous person. If I think if something is even the slightest bit off I'll bite my nails like the time I met the girl I am currently dating. I had been asked by the girls mother who I know if I would like her screen name and I did cause I had seen her before and she was very attractive. We talked online for a long time getting to know each other and when I was on my way to meet her I was thinking in the abck of my head that if I get there and she sees me and I'm the wrong guy what will I do, because at Hannaford where I work with the girls mother there is another guy who I've grown up with since 7th grade who has the same name as me but with his last name starting with Wi instead of Ou.So as you can see silly things will set me off and cause me to over think a situation. So with that story I show that even though da Vinci made the picture 'Proportions of Man' there are faults in each one of us and that is what makes the world go round.

week 7 theme

Starting a relationship is hard, but as I go I hope it gets easier. I find just asking a girl out on a date hard and I almost have a death fear of rejection. So when I do get the curage to ask it's a heavier hit if it is a rejection, but I'm on week 2 and the girl I'm with now, surprizingly came afte me. We talk whenever we can and it can last for hours and we have lots in common, but from here I have no clue where to go. I don't want to take a shot in the dark and hit the wrong thing in relationship edicate and end a good thing. Like I see my parents and I wonder "how the hell did they get from a first date to having a marriage?". So for now I'll be sitting on my hands until I either know what to do or she makes the move first. I'm hopng for latter because it just mkaes it easier on me.

theme week 6

As I look out across the bay at sun rise. I see the first glimmer of the sun through the pinks and purples or the whisps of clouds still hanging in the sky. The bay is already at high tide and the waves are gentilly washing onto the rocks. Behind me is thick woods with a small path that my step-father and I cut out with chain saws. I get into the wooden box with fake reeds and grass and I load my 10 guage shotgun, and then I sit and wait for the sun to rise til I can see over the entire bay. It gets to about 6:30 am and I whisper to my dog Hunter "It's go time." She just looks up at me with her ears perked up and I get the feeling she is saying "Just bring them down I'll get them." It doesn't take long for my ears to pick the faint quacking or ducks that were flying in from the lakes and streams to feed. I duck down low in my box and I start to blow into my duck call and just like I planned they swooped in low and I popped up and unloaded all three shots into the flock bringing two of the five down. I let Hunter out of the back of the box and I tell her to sit. I lean in next to her and I point out to the first duck and I say "get out!" She charges into the cold sea and greenish blue foam splashes up around her until she is slowed down and begins to swim. It takes her only 2 mins to swim out to the duck and bring it back to me and I tell her to sit again. As before I lean in close and point to the next duck and say "get out!" With the current taking the duck out a little futher it took Hunter 4 mins to bring in the male black duck. With all the work I put into getting the two ducks that was all I was alowed of the day so I picked up my gun, slung it over my shoulder let hunter pick up one of her ducks and we began our walk up the hill to my truck for the 40 min ride home.

Theme week 5

My sad story starts in my second year of high school. It's the week before Valentines day and at my school you can buy roses for the one you care for. Well I was single at the time but I had built up the courage to finilly ask out the girl I've known since second grade named Deven. I figured I could buy her the rose and then ask her out to a movie or bowling. I was so sure of myself that I didn't think it wouldn't work. Well we both have Chem lab togetherand that was when the rose would be given to her but it wasn't more then 20 mins before the class that I found out that she was going out with a guy name Chad who in my mind was an asshole. This killed me cause I couldn't stop the rose from coming and I could ask her out now cause of my morals of not getting between two people even if they are not right for each other. So I sat next to her liek I always did and when the rose came she just thanked me and I jst smiled and went back to my chem. on the inside I was devistated and I couldn't figure out what to do. So the rest of the day I just passed as an empty day of sarrow that I couldn't get over. I never did get to date Deven and she left for Farmington and I came here. I still think of her cause she was a person that was in my life a great deal. So to all the guys like me in the world please go after that special girl cause you never know when she'll be gone from you life and maybe gone forever.

Theme Week Four

Ever since 7th grade I've had one best friend and we still hang out alot. Sure we've had our differences, I've given him stitches and he has broken my wrist. He uses the word dude alot like " dude, guess what happened to me today?" in which I would return " what happened?" and his respons is " Oh my god dude, it was awsome. I got a job at Ames." Ofcourse in just a couple months Ames went bankrupt and he lost his job. Then it was about a year later we had the same conversation but with the job being Micro Dime which is a expantion of Dell computers. He's used to dive me to high school every morning for 2 years and now I'm returning the favor with me helping him in math. So with me and Mike still best friends we still see each other but we don't break each others bones or give stitches anymore, we just hang out and see movies with girls the way 20 year old boys should.

Theme week three

Ring....Ring.....Ring..... "Hello who is this?" "This is Mike dude, whats going on?" "Nothing much man. Just hanging around the house watching TV and playing some computer games". " You wanna hang out at my house and watch the baseball game and maybe order some pizza?" " Yeah dude that would be great. I have nothing better to do anyways." " So when do you wanna come over the game doesn't start 'til 6 tonight." "Well I could come over now and we could just chill there." " Ok man I'll see you here in about 30 mins. ok?" " Yep I'll be there in a little bit. see ya dude." " Yeah, see ya."

Week Two Theme: Unpacking the journal

As I look back on the journal I wrote I see every morning a rutine that of getting up, taking a shower, eating a random type of cerel, brushing my teeth then out to either school or work. Then after that come home for lunch which usely consists of something sweet. I can play a game for about 2 hours a day before I notice any time passage. Then I have dinner , homework and sleep at 10pm. Then the next day starts it all over again. I see now that I need to shake things up a bit and do some other stuff like going to the gym or going to a movie to get out of this rut I'm in.